One of the major problems I've had recently is "what to do?"
I have no clue what to do about much of my life's goals, plans, dreams - I've always had some sort of plan, so this floundering is new. And coupled with the anger, sadness, and frustration of losing my sons, it's debilitating. I'm going through the motions, but I'm not really here.
You see this is the thing about something like IC - it slams into your life and makes you question everything you thought you knew. And then you question all that you may have kind of known about what your body was doing when it decided to betray you: I can't help reliving the extra mucus, the slight pressure, the "gassy" pain in my back... Put all together, I should have gone to the doctor long before my check-up. But nothing I read pointed me that way. So then I start blaming everybody & everything (for not giving me the whole picture), including myself (for not being able to put it all together in time to save them). It's a vicious cycle. I'm trying to break free, but I guess it will take a while.
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I totally understand what you have gone through. 6 years ago i went to a doctors appt and found out that i was 2 centimeters dialated with my son. I was 23 weeks pregnant. Within hours I was 10 centimeters and had to deliever him, he did not survive the labor at all. And last year I lost another son after they put in a stitch my water broke later on in my pregnancy unexpectly and I was able to hold him in from 20 weeks until 24 weeks. He was with us for only 10 minutes. I am currently trying one last time to have a child. Good luck to you if you choose to try to get pregnant again.
ReplyDeleteUnfortunatly, I have lost two sons myself :-( Our first son Peyton was born 8-8-03 and our second son, Jaxson, was born 2-22-11. Both were stillborn because of IC. We were fortunate enough to have a beautiful baby girl in between the boys. I do wish there was more that could be done to save babies from IC. It is so sad that most women will have to lose a baby or two before they can have a chance at saving their sweet babies.
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